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mileslayer: If you think you can’t, watch this… Amazing story...

Sat, 16 Jun 2012 11:29:18 -0400

If you think you can’t, watch this… Amazing story of two women over 70 years old who run ultras.

I fell off the bandwagon.

Fri, 15 Jun 2012 08:03:00 -0400

Not only did I fall off, that sumbech rolled backwards and right over me. It’s sitting there, looking at me and telling me to get up or it’s gonna roll me again. I look like crap. I feel like crap. I’m trying to listen to that little wagon that should.

It’s hard.

If you’re someone who struggles with an NBD (neurobiological disorder) you know how hard it can be to find that mental stamina to fight through the day. Waking up is hard. Getting out of bed is hard. Work is hard. I try to keep a smile plastered to my face but I’m just so tired, beat and stressed all the time, lately. It’s never really easy, but sometimes NBD gets the best of you. It doesn’t give you a choice. It doesn’t care if you got bills to pay and food to put on the table, or if you got goals you’re trying to reach and the want to train your best. If it wants you down, it brings you down. All the way to the bottom. And, there’s no save in this game; you don’t get to resume where you left off. You gotta start from scratch and build yourself back up to something.

My race was June 2nd. The TMC Meet Me Downtown 5k. The largest 5k in Tucson. It was an amazing race. I ran my best time. I met Amby Burfoot TWICE, and he remembered me. I got side work opportunities. I got my first race medal. I felt on top of the world.

I haven’t done a damn thing since then. Nothing, but be out of my mind. No gym, no running, mucho nada but eat donuts and be everything not me.

I was having an episode.

NBD strikes, again! Albeit, it was a small episode, almost nothing compared to ones I’ve had before. They’re infrequent, without pattern and predictability. During a small episode, I don’t really know that anything’s different until after, when I feel different about myself. I can’t say better, but different. Like, I’m aware, like what the hell was I doing? Was that really me? It’s honestly something I don’t really like to talk or think about.

But, this is me. This is my life. This is what I have to live with. I have Paranoid Schizophrenia. Sometimes, it has me. I have dreams and goals. Some immediate, some so far out of touch they’re there just so I have something to always reach for. Some, just because. Sometimes, NBD gets in the way of everything. I’m still working on accepting that.

Like I said, this isn’t something I rather enjoy talking about, but I do not shy from it. If you have questions you are welcome to ask. But, don’t always expect an answer because I’m not a science module or whatever. I am a human. I have limits, and I am very vocal about accepting/protecting someone’s personal space. You don’t get to pick at me.

I feel like I’m on the upswing, so hopefully within the coming days I’ll get back to updating about running.

*KM

pandamakesit: funfitnfab: itsawonderfulhealthylife: THIS! if...

Fri, 01 Jun 2012 02:42:13 -0400

pandamakesit:

funfitnfab:

itsawonderfulhealthylife:

THIS!

if anyone has fallen off track, and outta struggling to get back on, this is for you!

we can do this

i hope

so

eireintheair: I run like a Bass.

Thu, 31 May 2012 16:38:13 -0400

eireintheair:

I run like a Bass.

5.6 miles in 1:07:12.

Wed, 30 May 2012 00:37:53 -0400

After a week and a half of mental setback, I was able to get up today and run. I missed MMM for the first time yesterday due to work (can’t ignore time and a half!), so today was the perfect day to hit Rillito River. I haven’t been there since January. This evening floated at 95 degrees so while still hot, it wasn’t that bad. I do need to hurry up and invest in a hydration belt. I hate carrying a bottle in my hand, and I can’t not be without water out there. The run was ok, not the greatest, not the worst. Lots of stopping to admire the view of the mountains at sunset. Also, encountered two rattle snakes. Heard one as he rattled at me from down in the riverbed. The other was warming himself on the paved track. Ran at a turtle pace but that’s alright with me. Wasn’t in a hurry to get anywhere.

suckkitin: queue- at work

Wed, 30 May 2012 00:32:45 -0400

suckkitin:

queue- at work

begikodienorastis:

Tue, 29 May 2012 03:18:12 -0400

begikodienorastis:

Having mental setbacks. Gotta fight through this.

Sat, 26 May 2012 04:47:05 -0400

Having mental setbacks. Gotta fight through this.

Yeskas Veggies Smell As Good As Bacon!: Running Workouts During Summer Heat

Tue, 22 May 2012 02:19:14 -0400

Yeskas Veggies Smell As Good As Bacon!: Running Workouts During Summer Heat:

yeskasveggiessmellasgoodasbacon:

1. Run before the sun gets above the horizon. Get up early during the warm months to avoid most of the dramatic stress from the sun and to enjoy the coolest time of day. Without having to deal with the sun, most runners can gradually adapt to heat. At the very least, your runs will be more…

"If you become restless, speed up. If you become winded, slow down. You climb the mountain in an..."

Tue, 22 May 2012 02:01:35 -0400

“If you become restless, speed up. If you become winded, slow down. You climb the mountain in an equilibrium between restlessness and exhaustion.”

- (via runningonblinddreams)

Summary of the day.

Tue, 22 May 2012 01:59:35 -0400

Just got home from MMM and the gym. Temps topped 105, and stayed there well into the evening. The heat was really oppressive, so I really had to take my time on my route. I ended up dropping the last mile completely so I only clocked about 3mi, then headed to the gym for some quality stretch time in hopes it would cool off outside. It was still hot, but not as hot as earlier, so I decided to jaunt around downtown and hit that mile on 4th Ave that I missed. Walked a few good portions of it because I was tired, and also I was having some serious bouts of nausea (nothing I can really do for those but grin and bear it). All in all, I racked up about 6 miles outside. Then, back at the gym I took a slow walk on the treadmill for about 25min doing some inclines. Overall, I’ll give today a 6.5 out of 10. Could have been worse, but could have been so much better.

Going for a run

Mon, 21 May 2012 21:12:53 -0400

Heay advisory today, so taking a water bottle with me. Its still about 100 outside.

No running this weekend.

Sun, 20 May 2012 02:39:54 -0400

Instead, I’m cheering on old friends at Feile Rince Tucson. Oh God, I miss dancing. I haven’t noticed how much until I got to the feis and realized it had been another year since I set foot on a competition stage. Let alone, in my dance studio.

I’m honestly thinking of trading the triple crown for dance lessons. I don’t know how that would work out because dance is expensive. Well, I don’t really have to attend three classes a week. But even so, that’d be at least $60-$120 a month just for classes. Plus, I need new ghillies and hard shoes because mine are a, sad and worn out, and b, my new hard shoes went missing at the studio (i’d worn them maybe twice? then POOF, they were gone), and my old ones? I have no idea where they are. They got left at the studio on accident, too. And, one day I just never went back. I always meant to, but then a year passed. Also, my current work schedule isn’t really flexible enough to fit into my school’s current schedule. I’d be lucky for that one class a week. And to add to it, competition fees. I spent anywhere from $50-$110 per registration. On top of that, travel and accommodation can pile up really fast, so that usually ended up about $300 per feis.

When I compare that to running, it seems like a no brainer. It doesn’t cost me anything to lace up my shoes and hit the pavement. New shoes every few months? Ok. Gym membership? $30 a month and it covers all the fitness classes I want, plus all the equipment usage, as well as access to their studios when classes aren’t being held. Lately I’ve been having my own little Irish dance lessons on my own, working on spins, jumps and the steps I know (and yes, making up a few of my own). Race fees for my 5k’s never cost more than $25. The Triple Crown, at $100, will enter me into my next 5k, 8k and the half marathon coming up. It’s all local. I don’t have to leave the city. My biggest worry is making sure I have transportation to get to the starting line. The Tucson Marathon will be about $100. I don’t have to go far for that, either. And, right now, I really love running (when I’m not hating it!).

But, I love dance too.

Unfortunately, there isn’t a way to do both. Something has to wait, again. It’ll probably be Irish dance. It will be Irish dance if I’m serious about reaching Boston. I doubt I’d be able to be a competitive Irish dancer as well as a BQ chaser. Both are taxing, time consuming and deserve direct focus. Which, I can’t do right now because I’m seriously tired. I’m running on two hours of sleep on a full day. It’s approaching midnight, I’ve been up since about 8am. I don’t know if I even make sense right now.

I need to sleep on this.

*KM

Trying so hard...

Fri, 18 May 2012 21:40:27 -0400

…to watch Spirit of the Marathon. But, my stupid laptop keeps cutting off every 10min or so. It hates playing video.

This is so lame.

mileslayer: At some point in the marathon the distance is...

Thu, 17 May 2012 04:46:23 -0400

mileslayer:

At some point in the marathon the distance is greater then the human ability to transcends it„,

I need to watch this…

"There will come a point in the race, when you alone will need to decide. You will need to make a..."

Thu, 17 May 2012 04:35:44 -0400

““There will come a point in the race, when you alone will need to decide. You will need to make a choice. Do you really want it? You will need to decide.””

- Rolf Arands

I’ve been asking pretty much every marathoner I know for advice, and it comes down to the same thing: “No matter what, you will hurt after 20 miles.”

Maybe my breaking point will come a little earlier or a little later. No matter what, though, I’ve been assured that it will cease being about my body, and it will be all about my mind pushing forward.

I’d like to believe that I’m strong enough to power through, that I will come through the flames refined and self-assured. But I won’t know until I’m in that moment, delirious and stricken and probably feeling more dead than ever, face-to-face with all my doubts and fears that have manifested in the intense pain and fatigue of the moment.

Of course I’m nervous… but I’m also a little excited.

(via runslikeapenguin)

What do you think?

Thu, 17 May 2012 03:23:43 -0400

thegymhamster:

For every reblog I get on this post I’ll run a mile tomorrow?
Sounds goo…
Ends by the time I wake up tomorrow!

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Thu, 17 May 2012 03:21:18 -0400

WHOA!

Thu, 17 May 2012 03:17:33 -0400

beingweightless:

Who ran a full 30 minutes - 2.47 miles - without stopping today?

ME ME ME ME MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!

I started running April 19 - not even a month ago. I could barely run 1/8 of a mile without feeling like I was going to die. And NOW look!!!

Our bodies are incredible and amazing and they respond with passion when we ask them for more than they have ever given before.

I am in awe…of MYSELF! =) HeeHee!

Go girl!

Getting back in the game.

Mon, 14 May 2012 20:03:08 -0400

Going to ease back into running today, after being laid up for a week. Will attempt the whole 4mi, but backing off if I need to.

I don’t feel 100%, but then I never quite do (I give today an 80). If I were to wait for perfect health I would never make it a day out of bed. So, kiss asphalt, LGF and nausea! Sometimes, you win but not today.